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Why do you post stuff when you’re grumpy and shouldn’t be online?

Its a common enough question. Why do I post online when I’m grumpy? In all honesty because I’m human and annoyingly I have to document the crappy stuff alongside the good stuff.

“But why? I don’t understand.”

Because I’m not all sweetness and light.
I’m human and I have my flaws, which I make visible.
I have things that wind me up, I have things that frustrate me.
Without these to check me I wouldn’t be grounded, balanced (obviously not when I’m in the grumpy flow) and able to see both sides of the argument.

And without these I wouldn’t connect the way I’m meant to with others.

“That makes no sense….I wouldn’t post if feeling grumpy.”

Really? To me it makes perfect sense. But then I see things from very different perspectives from other people. I always have.

Shall I give you an example?

Ok – right now as I’m typing this I have been unable to upload photos to Facebook since Friday night (its now Monday night). Small thing isn’t it on the surface? Yes it is and I can see with one part of me its something of absolutely no significance.

So why am I seriously irritated with it all? I run a very busy sales group on FB and if I can’t upload to the group I can’t get stock moving to where it needs to be……and this is a busy time of year.

“Ummmmmm……..”

I know, I know. Its not all about money – this is about the energy flow being cut off and stuck somewhere and I can’t find where it is.

My energetic side of things is telling me an opportunity to use the downtime to do something else – and I will.

The human side of me is simply venting to get it out of the system before I implode. And I do this through my blog space and through my page….as by acknowledging it i can move through it.

“Ok thats starting to make a bit more sense”

This time of year brings a lot of shadow stuff to the surface and when you anchor for the collective (raises hand) it gets amplified. And as you know I have to go INTO what comes up to help it disperse for the larger group. Lucky me eh? *wry smile*

So again my higher self is fully aware of what is going on and as I’m typing I’m aware that the human side of myself is fighting it.

  • It may be others feelings/programming/panic around money coming up through the collective that I’m being flung into.
  • Is it some old outdated beliefs I have around money coming to the surface.
  • Could it even be a light bulb shining on the beast that is FB and asking “is this really the right place for you?”.
  • I have a lot to mull over. And yes I can see a lot more aspects to this than what’s on the surface.

When you work with energy it can be frustrating when things grind to a halt for no seemingly obvious reason.

pic for "fuel to fire" blogBut there’s ALWAYS a reason.

You may not see or sense it straight away ….but it’s there.
Lurking in the background just waiting to jump out yelling “ AH HA!! You’ve found me!!!!!! Now get to work.”

I will continue to post when grumpy as I know showing this very human, flawed side of myself to you is what clicks. The human connection, trials and frustrations. It brings us together.

It also shows that:

hey even she’s going into meltdown. It’s not just me

I will always share that side of myself  grumpy is part of my “charm” after all. I’m not going to hide a side of myself.

So if you feel pissed off or irritated over something that in essence is a bit silly….it’s ok. You are human.

It’s called having an emotional response ….we can give ourselves permission to feel, to express…..and to clean up the carnage afterwards.

Being triggered isn’t always a bad thing

No really I’m not kidding – being triggered can be a good thing. It’s the not reacting part that takes a bit of work. The urge to wrap your hands round someones throat can be overwhelming but you CAN move past it.

So why am I bringing this up?

In all honesty I’ve been triggered the past full week with all sorts of headf**kery and programmed bs. Due to having taken part in a webinar that really wasn’t the best thing for me in hindsight. The first part was great and semi-useful but the second half……

Lets just say it was a REALLY hard sell. Since then I’ve had tonnes of emails which I been ignoring but the programming went in.

I’ve been implementing all the new stuff for 2018 that I’ve been asked to sort out and these little mind worms have been undermining my progress.

“You can’t do this without help”………
“You don’t have formal training”………
“Do you need extra insurance and more outlays???”…………
“Are you really ready for this? Should you sign up and just do the course???”…….

You can see the pattern.

I finally twigged yesterday just what was going on. I wasn’t overly happy but rather than kick off I’ve gone in , removed it, blasted my energy system and started again.

Hit the re-set button

I had to go back to the original stage where I was asked to bring something forwards. What was it that resonated there and then? By going back to that I’ve re-set everything around it. To the point that I booked the first stage in this morning with no fuss, no drama and zero overthinking.

It was the overthinking that was driving me (and my poor friend who was getting my stupid panicked questions) absolutely demented. I was over thinking EVERY SINGLE DETAIL. It’s not a big thing. Its new for me but sure as hell not a big scary thing that my head was insisting it was.

It’s just a bit of planning. But because I’d let that programming in it was doing all the shouting, fretting and “look at it all I might miss something” bullshit thats been going on for me for almost a week.

Annoying – yes
Frustrating – yes
Going any further? Hell no, its been dealt with.

Like I said the trick is not reacting when you finally hear the penny drop. You really really want to react …..trust me its a human instinct to inflict what you’ve had back on the person who did it you you. But we know this achieves absolutely nothing in the long run so we stop, trace it back, release and dissolve back to source, reboot out energy and start again.

Intent not murder!

It doesn’t have to be a big complicated process it really can be made simple as its the intent you have that’s important.

But most important of all is if you do have a desire to react DON’T do it on social media. That old thing of once seen cannot be unseen.

Once triggered you can be a tad volatile

I saw something today that triggered me again. Now I know, or at least I hope, it wasn’t aimed at me and to be honest even if it was it doesn’t matter. What matters is the nerve it touched and the realisation that folk have absolutely no idea what others are going through at any given time.

To cast judgement based on one partial side of the story is pretty short sighted. There’s ALWAYS more going on than you can ever see visible.

Just remember to treat others how you would like to be treated yourself. That’s especially true on social media.

So if you get triggered get triggered. Just put in the work afterwards to get rid of whatever has come up for you to focus on for a while.

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That “Ah ha!” moment

We all have them. That flash of insight that makes you go “Ah ha!” well I had one yesterday.

“Well? What was it?”

I’m getting to it.

It was an odd one – I’ve been dealing with a lot of old patterning and beliefs stemming back to my teenage years – letting them go, clearing them and forgiving them.

This one kind of crept up on me. I was doing an oracle card reading for someone and has a flash of realisation that I’ve been hiding from my full potential doing these readings. I know that sounds all a little too cryptic doesn’t it.

“Just a tad”

I know!

So some background – in my late teens I was given a tarot deck – nothing fancy just a simple tarot deck and guidebook. I started to work with it and after a bit of time offered to try a few readings for my friends.

They started getting accurate…..very accurate. I’ll be honest I scared the bejesus out of myself and put them away never to be worked with again.

Hindsight is 20:20 vision

In hindsight I realise now I wasn’t in the space I am now to be able too understand what I was picking up on. So it put me off.

Fast forward quite a few years later and I was gifted an angel oracle deck – I had, obviously, some negative connotations around the word Tarot – so Oracle felt safer to someone really just starting out.

I found that I enjoyed working with them but only used them for myself – and after a few years for some other very close friends. You know the usual, drawing the cards and looking up in the book what it meant 🙂 nothing wrong with that, we all learn somehow.

Fast forwards a few more years and my collection of decks was a tad higher *ahem up in the 20’s* I was a bit more confident and decided on a whim I’d pop up a reading on my FB page.

“Sounds relatively straight forwards”

Yes, it may read like the in black and white but it took a MASSIVE amount of trust to do that. So many other people I knew and followed on FB did incredible readings and I felt a little out of my depth but I felt the fear and did it anyway.

“But you say don’t compare yourself to others”

I know – but this is simply to show you I’m still human and still get the wobbles and that’s ok.

So I did occasional readings or card pulls till I started to build up more confidence to keep doing them weekly. When I look back at the original ones I started with I see how far things have progressed but I’m jumping ahead of myself again.

So for a good 6-8 months I was doing my weekly readings – enjoying them , getting practice. And then I got asked if I could do a reading for another person. Eeeeeep!!!! Oh my god – someone wants me to read for them and pay me to do it???! PANIC, PANIC, PANIC…grab the brown paper bag she’s going to pass out!!!!!!!

I know it seems a bit funny now but at the time I just about sh*t myself – honestly!

Leap of faith

So I did it. And you know what? It went just fine. As of course it was always going to – I had no faith in myself.

Those of you who know my FB page know I do a weekly reading every Sunday and have done for what feels like ages – but I’ve noticed a step change in them. They aren’t light and fluffy – they can go in a very different direction to others that go up on the same day or they can almost echo the same sentiment. They are becoming more in depth – and I’m working with them intuitively. I’m sensing what comes through direct and not relying on the guidebooks.

 

My decks change every 6 month or so as my vibration changes. Which is perfect otherwise the energy would stagnate. So as soon as a deck hasn’t been worked with for a while I release it.

photo for card readings blog“So this “Ah ha!” moment you spoke of ????”

Yes – I realised that I have been self limiting myself HUGELY on my card readings I do for others.
I play it down, a lot.
I don’t advertise them as I assume there are others out there who can do much better than myself

And I caught myself at it yesterday – wait a minute! Seriously what was I doing?

I was listening to my teenage self without really knowing it. Bless her. Letting her fear take over and keep things suppressed.

I am just a channel for my team – truly.

These cards are simply another form of communication with them that I can translate in a visual manner – I’m a visual learner always have been. So I can interpret what I see and the patterns that come forwards. Or the words that flow when I type up the reading – trust me what I go to say and what I type can be veeeeeeeeery different.

Sometimes when I read them back I can’t believe I was quite that eloquent ….until I twig it wasn’t me. I’m at peace with that – I’m laughing as I type this thats’s how at peace with it I honestly am.

Now to be very precise I don’t work with Spirit – that’s a conscious choice I made several years ago.

I’m not a psychic medium nor do I have any pull towards that type of work.

What comes through in the readings is a direct link with Source via my team/higher self as a filtration system of sorts. Or a go-between.

“So this teenage self thing….”

We had a chat.
I told her it was ok to let go of the fear as it’s ok.
I have more understanding now than I did then and my discernment works in such a way its ok.
She let go 🙂

“So what happens now?”

We go with the flow and see where it ends up.

I’m being more open now that this is a form of work that I do and am HAPPY to do for others. It’s all about interpretation and thats why it’s by email only for now. I like to sense check I’m getting the right message before I pass them across.

So if you haven’t seen them please by all means have a look at my FB page for some examples and see if they resonate, or have a look here and see if anything feels right.

https://www.dragonascensiontherapies.co.uk/energy-work/oracle-card-readings/

No. More. Hiding.

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Words of wisdom during a solar flare

There are times when my team give me some cracking words of wisdom, even during a solar flare.

These came through last night while I was replying to a comment on a closed group.

Essentially as the energy last night was a bit irritated/raw/borderline angry I was advised to put out a wee heads-up to step back and let things play out and then die out.

The exact words that channelled through were:

“Leave well alone and let things die down. Don’t add fuel to a dying fire and then complain about running out of water ……”

Subtle huh?

Now I’m sensitive to solar flares more so than lunar energies or planetary movement. This is in part due to the fire energy it comes from – I’m working with a LOT of fire energy recently and a solar flare on top of that can be a tad…combustible. It can blast out a lot of what has been bubbling under the surface – like a volcanic eruption. Which I was VERY aware of on social media.

What folks tend to forget is that social media is a very accurate real time indication of what’s going on energetically…..and I do pay attention.

So there you have it a glimmer of wisdom after so much chaos.

Working with dragons etc can be like herding feral cats but every now and again one curls up in your lap purring and makes all the scratches and complete frustration worth it.

 

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That moment when you really want to tell your team to f**k off………

You may laugh but I had this exact moment last week when my energy drained to such a dangerously low level I could no longer cope. I had to tell my team , very abruptly and very clearly to “f**k off! Seriously f**k right off!

Seriously? You said that to them?!

Yup! We still very much have free will as a hupic for that moment blogman and CAN tell our teams to back off when things get just too much.

I had been holding two massive spaces for two different situations and I’ll be brutally honest I’d over extended myself. To a dangerously low level.

How did I know?

Well, for one I was utterly exhausted, not sleeping, flying off the handle and on social media on my personal page getting very defensive.

This is not “normal” for me I tend to be a bit calmer, easy to diffuse potential explosions and quick to nip things in the bud.

 

The penny drops…..in the moment

The very fact I was letting myself get riled over, lets face it, daft things of zero consequence was a huuuuuuuuge warning bell I needed to step back before I imploded.

So step back I did. I left several groups (one of which was my own I might add) , stepped back from all my pages/groups and took a time out……..Yes it did feel like a temper tantrum. An energetic one. I don’t do too well on lack of sleep at the best of times added in all the pressure I had taken on was a melting pot. Imagine Vesuvius and you get a feel for where I was.

So they gave me approx 12 ours or so before they were at me to launch the 1-2-1 Teaching……..seriously????? Guys the human body needed at least 5 days of R&R not 12 HOURS.

What did you do?

Like I said above I told them direct to essentially knock it off, cut the sh*t and leave me alone. That’s the thing with my team they do help facilitate situations where I am pushed to my limits to see if my boundaries hold or if I roll over and let things happen.

As you may have spotted there was no rolling over this time.

Energy workers. Please I am speaking to you direct here. Use this as a teaching/learning NOT to overburden yourself. If things feel too much take a STEP BACK. Temporarily pull yourself in and do the self work/healing/resting to safe guard your energy.

We are all “guilty” of doing this and our teams, at times bless them, forget we are still human and need to eat, sleep and rest. Working 24/7 is nothing to them ….For the human body it’s a little more complex.

Stand up for yourself. No-one else will do it on your behalf.

Ok – so in life I’m a blunt speaker (had you noticed?) and I do ask for things in respect to myself be made very very clear so I get them. But you can be equally as blunt back . Yes really. Regardless of what energy you are talking to.

I’ve sworn at angelic beings and I’m still here.

I took the time I needed to recharge my energy . I ignored my team for several days and then created a crystal gird for me and me alone. The first time I’d done that in ages. And the healing came. Only once I was strong enough did I put the message out there re the teaching and I now have blessed silence.

Put it another way if I was a phone last week my battery was around 1% today it’s around 97% and I’ve said to them to bring in the next round as Im where I need to be.

They don’t my swearing personally as they don’t judge and they have the same sense of humour anyway and swear back (which I’ll confess I like).

So there you go. When in doubt swear it out your system

You’ll feel better if nothing else………..