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Launching my new service called "Alignment to Self".

Alignment to self – here we go…launch time!

It can be a scary thing launching something before you think it’s ready.
But that’s exactly what I’ve been nudged into doing this week. No more waiting, no more sense checking “just launch it already!”

“Alignment to Self”

This is a phrase I was given way back in Nov 2018 and I’ve been sitting on it since then. I’ve had to really understand what I;d been given and what it meant to me. And then what it meant to others.

Over the last 6 months or so I’ve been shown how to change how I work. Which new paths we were going down and watching my team shift , change and go even deeper than before.

Yes my current team are very much involved but they’ve dare I say it matured a tad to do this. Or at least gotten slightly more serious with this one. It’s important. And it’s ever evolving.

My journey to launch day

It’s been a very eventful path that’s for sure. And each time you feel you’ve gotten somewhere they pull the rug out from under you.

I have some things that I may not be continuing any further , some that are shifting a a fair bit and some “new ” stuff coming in.

This is one of the newbies. Well, I say new , it is to me it possibly isn’t to many others. Sometimes many of us get the same message at the same time. And thats great. I’ve had to go with this right now as if I wait any longer they’ll hand it to someone else . Fair enough.

I got to try this out in March at the retreat I ran. We pretty much had 4 days of this all by itself. And I know the people who were there felt the shift in my and my team to do this. I’ve just been procrastinating. Or to be fair I had something that needed to shift so I’m ready to hold this space.

It’s an honour to do but is a big responsibility. So some people may be gently turned away from this if they aren’t used to doing their own work or dealing with their shadow aspects as they come up.

I’m still learning

Truly I am and it’s amazing what comes up. I can see all sorts of pathways leading from this point. Some I may follow , some I may not. It all depends where I am asked to place my focus.

For better or worse today is launch day. It’s out there to be seen and heard. Essentially putting my name on the line and that can be scary stuff. Right now it’s more a case of “sod it” than anything else. If you thought I was blunt before – well – brace yourselves!

This is just the start and I have more to share that I’ve been given but I’m taking my time (not too long) and making sure it’s right.

The wording is so simple it IS right – but one launch at a time!


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Energy Work book closed till Jan 2019

I’m just back after taking some much needed time away with part of my soul crew this week and I have a few things to put into action. The first of which will be from now till year end I won’t have any available appointments for energy work. The book will reopen from January 2019.

I’m stopping to concentrate on some needed self work. And the work handed to me at halloween which needs my full attention, energy and participation. Rather than the half arsed effort it’s been thus far. It’s big work and requires a bit of respect from yours truly.

So clearing the books it is.

For any that have been booked these will of course be honoured as this is a tad unexpected.

But this is me listening to my OWN advice about self care. About frigging time yes?

I will still be here and sharing as always and I will be continuing the Preloved crystals side of things but they won’t be running the show.


Interesting times

I’ve had my eyes opened to a few things this week:

Seen some surprising masks falling continuing the theme of the year.

Observed some real ego crappolla pop up on social media which I have zero time for. In particular from those who claim not to come from ego doing just that. A fair few double standards it has to be said. A lot to be said for plain speech and not speaking in riddles or thinly veiled drama.

I have some re-prioritisation to do before Winter Solstice (my new year) with self, work , direction etc. And truthfully what better time than now?

Here’s to seeing where the path meanders to next , speaking with my team and making time for the things that need it.

Contact me if you need to

If you have something that simply can’t wait by all means please get in touch.

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All energy work available bookings will start from Jan 2019

When the spiral turns

We all know that feeling when the spiral turns. Where what was once up is now down. What was down is now up. And having no clue how you got there.

Dark night of the Soul

This is a term you hear again and again. But what does it actually mean?

It’s different for each person and depends wholly on what you go through and come out the other side of.

I’ve had 3 that I know of and can recall in vivid detail.

The last of which was almost exactly 4 years to the day.

For me the dark night of the soul is when everything falls apart at the same time and the feeling of not being able to cope closes in. Or a clusterf*ck of things failing all at the same time. When the spiral turns and you find yourself at the very bottom of it clinging on for dear life. Without a clue or a safety net to help you back up again.

“Why are you bringing this up now?”

Because I am seeing and observing many lovely folks going through there own version of the spiral tipping upside down. It’s hard to observe and not be able to help beyond holding space. But as someone who came through her’s I’d like to explain why just being there for someone is so important.

We aren’t looking for you to fix things we’re just looking for support and a safe space when everything else feels like pure chaos.

Some context

I have spoken of this a fair few times but lets be truly honest and open.
4 years ago I had a complete mental breakdown.
It was messy, it was brutal and it shook my life upside down.

This was my third bout of clinical depression since 2002. And it was the worst by a long shot. It came with full paranoia which does a number on you that I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

But I was finally paying attention. I was in a job for 16 years that was making me deeply unhappy and pulling me off course. I was actually following my fathers footsteps. Sounds innocuous doesn’t it? Well no, I had the realisation THIS year the I was following his exact pattern and that if I hand’t stepped out I may not have been here for much longer. I am not overstating this. He passed young, from stress. I broke that pattern well and truly. It wasn’t mine to follow hence why it was making me so ill.

It took my team 3 attempts to get the message across and I know I wouldn’t have been given a 4th if I’d ignored this one.

My life was being pulled in two polar opposite directions and the physical “me” couldn’t cope with the huge gap between them. I had to be forced to make a choice, stay and become ill. Or leave and fix myself.

I took a scary leap of faith and took the latter option.

“Bloody hell!”

I know but I am proof it CAN be done – scary or otherwise.

Without that leap I would have stayed right where I was and who knows what state I would be in now.

But that’s the point I don’t have to wonder or think about it as I changed the script. I reached my rock bottom and while parts are extremely hazy it had to be done.

It took me a good 6 months of rest, daily exercise, remembering to eat and finally starting to sleep again before I emerged from my stupor. Before I started to feel less shaky, less anxious, less paranoid. More myself and able to breathe again.

I started to have all sorts of realisations of what was going on. As it wasn’t JUST the job that was going sideways. I had some people in my life who were the absolute wrong vibration and had to go. I had to cut all ties and work solid for over a year to reverse a whole host of crap out of my system and out of my energies.

But it made me stronger.

I was able to start my own business in 2014 and I’m still here. In a slightly different form to when I tentatively launched myself *wry smile*

It made me able to do what I now do for others. Without that experience I would have no empathy for the people who seek me out or find me.

And I’ve made my peace with that. It took a while but I got here.

And if I can do it ANYONE can.

Here’s the important bit. I had a few people in my life who stepped up.
Who fully supported me through it , who were there when I needed to offload and were there when I needed a boot applied to my arse.

Without them I wouldn’t have gotten so far so fast. They are still very much in my life now and we still support each other.

That list has grown somewhat over 4 years but it’s strong.
I found my tribe and it shifts as I do. And I’m cool with that.

I am now in a position where I can be that person for others. To hold safe protected space to let them be honest with themselves. To fall apart if need be and know I have their back with zero judgement. I have no possible way of understanding exactly what they are going through only that they are.

For me to be empathetic but not take their stuff on for them as it serves no-one to do that. Holding space does not mean absorbing others issues, pain, challenges or lessons. We do our own work in our own way. Give people the space and respect to do so.

Work in Progress

I’m still doing my work. Working with my shadow aspect and having realisations all over the place. I am a work in progress and always will be as I learn and remember aspects of who I am and who I will become.

That’s the trick right there. When you find yourself at the bottom of that spiral it can shake everything apart.
It’s your job to put yourself back together – possibly in a completely different pattern.

I am a radically different person to who I was 4 years ago. And it’s a bloody good thing as I was a shell, a whisper of myself.

Now I’m standing fully in who I am , what I work with and what I do. And I have a feeling I always will be.
I am becoming who I was meant to be before I got sidelined by various circumstances and choices made via free will along the way.

The spiral always turns back up again

Remember this. It’s important.

Your spiral WILL turn back up again that’s the beauty of a spiral.

And while yours rights itself the next persons may dip down. Be there for them.

You have no idea until you’ve been through it just how important that support is or becomes. Or how you then pass it forwards.

It’s a beautiful thing when you look back on it.

photo of local clouds

Getting triggered…it happens

Getting triggered happens to us all at some stage. The main thing is not to beat yourself up.

Care for an example?

For me it happened yesterday. But rather than react I took a step back and decided to process it instead.

Here’s a direct transcript of what I wrote on my FB page at the time. It’s part of my process to share.

An interesting one this as I’m still processing and shedding even as I type.

I saw a shared post pop up on my newsfeed today which has completely pissed me off. It’s likely to be re-shared a lot as it seems clever and all the rest of it. To me came across as highly judgemental of peoples choice to what they do and don’t focus their attention on.

I’m not going to repeat or show said post as 1. it serves no purpose (other than my initial reaction) and 2. I hid it as honestly if I saw it again i would simply react – and not well I might add.

Which is not a good idea this week as some odd energies flying around. Today in particular …feels like the collective right now.

Instead I am sitting with it and asking WHY it’s triggered such a strong reaction. It’s in part conformation of why at the age I am (42) I have made a conscious step away from something I see as not relevant, all smoke and mirrors and not going to be carried forwards for too much longer.

I decide what my focus is, no-one else. If I choose to not feed energy to something that is is my choice. It’s not your choice. You have your own to make. Which I respect …..something that gets overlooked a LOT on social media.

Words have power – never forget that.

And once seen cannot be unseen.

So at this time when we are revisiting, remembering etc these things can be flashed into our awareness as a test of sorts to see if we have changed. I have in a sense that I did not respond, hid the post. So I wouldn’t be tempted to go back to it and scrolled past where at another time I would have jumped in feet first and regretted it later. So forward movement.

Sometimes taking that breath, that little step back to going observation is a fecking good thing.photo of local clouds


Away to sit with this a bit longer . So I don’t punch my computer or tablet screen any time soon……….

And before anyone asks I am actually fine just processing

Like I always say I’m still human and will share the not-so-great stuff when it happens.”

Today is a much better day. Energy wise creativity is flowing and I’m setting my intents for the next 3 years.

Some interesting stuff on the horizon is all I will say at this point 😉

Be your own light

Doing your own work – it’s important

So here we go with the blunt messages – this time it’s the importance of doing your OWN work.

I see this time and time again and I’ll be honest I’ve been there myself so zero judgement from this end  – that desire to seek out knowledge, to find people who know more than you, for them to tell you what to do, for them to fix you…… WHOAH right there. Seriously stop.

“Why did I just pull the handbrake?”

Can I let you into a pretty big secret – you ready to hear it?

No-one has the magic answer to what’s going on with you energetically. Anyone who says they have is kidding themselves, and again this includes me if I EVER say anything like that. No matter how well known, how many courses they’ve done, what they teach, how impressive their energetic resume… there’s only ONE person who knows whats going on with your energy. And that person is YOU.

“aww man that’s a cop out.”

Really – and why do you say that?
Is it because it suddenly shifts the focus back to yourself and it makes you uncomfortable?
Were you looking for an easy quick solution to things and thought you’d hand the reins over to someone more “advanced “ who could give you all the answers?
Were you looking for a short cut or fast track?

I’m sorry but theres no magic wand to wave over you to say “that’s you all sparkly and new” it doesn’t work like that.

No – it can be a hard slow slog, that can be frustrating as all hell, disturbing, wonderful, uplifting, utterly depressing, makes you want to learn everything, makes you want to learn nothing……….but it’s YOUR work.

By all means learn from others, seek out mentors or way-showers but please don’t simply hand over your energy to anyone else – that way trouble leads, believe me I know, I’ve been there. Take back your energy. Instead learn to work with it, learn what it feels like, learn to understand what you are telling yourself on different levels.

Self -work is the most important lesson I’ve learnt on my journey – and it goes hand in hand with discernment which I talk about over and over. It truly is that important. Learn to listen to and trust your gut instincts. You know what can happen when you overule them. If something doesn’t feel right then step back, postpone. The reason generally comes forward quickly when you pay attention.

Be present , be aware or learn to be. It takes practise and there will be times when it goes wrong or blows up – and you know what. It’s ok if that happens – see it as a way to learn. God knows I’ve learnt a lot of hard lessons over time and I’ve made peace with it. Without these challenges I wouldn’t be where I am now energetically – and honestly I have had to go through things to understand them and have empathy for others in similar situations.

I know this sounds pretty much like a telling off, it isn’t my team are simply repeating this over and over and over so I have to put it in black and white. So many people look for a quick fix and there really isn’t one.

Put the work in and it will get easier and quicker with time.

Be your own lightIt’s like peeling an onion.

At the very start the hard outer layers can be fiddly to remove they can keep splitting so you have to go back and do it again, or flake so you have to pick the tiny shards off one by one and it can take forever but the further in you get the quicker it becomes and the faster you get at doing the work.

Don’t hand it over to someone else who works differently from you, or to someone standing over your shoulder saying “no do it this way” how frustrated does it make you feel when that happens? ….yes you are the onion in this.

By all means ask for someone else’s view point but don’t give them your knife. In all honesty if you find the right way shower they will hand the knife back to you and say you know how to do this have some faith in yourself, I’m here if you get stuck, but I have my own onion to peel.


So yes messy and hard and frustrating as it may be do your own work – you’ll thank yourself for it. Trust me on that