**TRIGGER WARNING – some of what I write here may trigger you. If that happens take responsibility for your own feelings. I do not accept or take on your triggers, they are yours to look at **
Ok lets get to it. And to start with let me state front and centre this is not a blog about my beliefs – this is a blog about my experiences and observations, and a bit about the energy I’m witnessing. I can only speak on certain aspects from a stand point of being in the UK as that’s where I live. Other countries guidance, rules etc I can’t and won’t comment as:
I. Don’t. Live. There.
2020 has been a complex year and as it continues more and more is being thrown into the pot. To simmer and then come to a rolling boil. We understood this was a massive year. But very few could see the extent of that statement. Hindsight being 20:20 vision will show us more clarity when we look back.
So why am I writing this blog?
In all honesty I couldn’t sit on it any longer. Each and every time I log onto social media it is presented to me in seconds and I’m kind of done now. I have been observing this for the last 2 months and am now concerned with the direction it appears to be moving in. I am trusting some of you will read this and view current happenings from a slightly different perspective – so the timeline can be amended or crashed.It also means my team will STOP presenting it to me as I will have spoken up.
I’m also going to give you some context in some areas.
I am not here to be educated or be shown evidence – I have done my own due diligence and I highly recommend you all do yours. This is part of your discernment and finding what it true for you – not what is currently true for the narrative.
What’s been playing out.
Where to start? Ok at the very beginning of lockdown in the UK – early/mid April. I started to become aware of a very unpleasant energy that was starting to attach to something. Those of you who follow me on Facebook may have seen a video I did on my page group about timelines. I mentioned people calling the police on their neighbours for “not following the rules” and it was growing. Luckily it ran out of steam and I know the police up here in Scotland essentially asked folk to knock it off.
This was through the fear being generated – but also a cyclic energy that was taking the opportunity to cause dissent. That whole thread has crashed and burned. And I warned what could happen if we carried on down that one.
Great it was gone.
Sadly that energy has attached to something small but has grown very rapidly into one of the most divisive energies I have seen this year. In fact, in a long time.
Face coverings or face masks.
Now some context and a lot of it.
I have tried with some non-surgical face coverings and the result for me on a personal level was horrific. What a lot of people do not know about me, as I don’t advertise it, is that I do in certain situations have pretty intense claustrophobia. Which can induce panic attacks and difficulty breathing.
Now for those who feel I am being dramatic. I’m not. My family and some very close friends have seen it. Large crowds (I used to have panic attacks in Glasgow city centre), lifts and escalators can trigger them. And for the most part I have managed to get them under control.
And it now appears having my nose and mouth covered also trigger it.
This is precisely what happened. I managed 15 seconds before the panic attack set in. And it took a further 30 minutes for me to be able to breathe properly again. Added to that it takes a day or so for your body to fully recover.
If you have never experienced one – and I truly trust you don’t as they are hideous – you tend to write it off as anxiety. They are very different beasts.
So when some people say they can’t breathe in a face covering kindly believe them. Don’t automatically judge they are lying, or they can push through and get used to it. THAT causes the anxiety to rise – to the point where even seeing a photo of one or hearing the word can be overwhelming.
Now I had some very well meaning people attempt to tell me about how to get them fitted, having to wear them for work etc.
So some more context for you.
I more than understand PPE (personal protective equipment) which theses face coverings are not. They do not pass muster or tests for that definition.
For 16 years I worked in a business that required I wear a combination of any of the following PPE on a daily basis:
- Disposable Gloves
- Labcoat – I had about 3-4 on rotation
- Ear plugs
- Ear Defenders
- Steel toe-capped footwear
- Hard hat
- High visibility bibs/clothing
I worked in a lab for 8 years so trust me I know. Even when I moved to a different site and worked in the office – if I ever had to go through the bottling plant certain PPE was required by law (Health and Safety Act). I know only too well how uncomfortable they are when worn for a full day – disposable gloves were my nemesis. The alcohol hand sanitiser I also loathed as it stripped my skin and irritated it. The head aches I would get from having to wear goggles for hours on end.
I get it. Those of you who have to wear any of the above I understand how difficult it is to adapt to them. It takes time, practice and a lot of patience.
The only thing I didn’t have to wear was a face mask. Why? The lab I worked in had specialised fume cupboards with safety screens to allow us to work with the chemicals safely. So I didn’t know till a few weeks ago they were an issue for me.
I also know you have to get the right size and know how to wear them correctly. Otherwise they are useless. So a shout out to those wearing face coverings but keep your nose uncovered. You’d be as well not bothering.
Now I’ve given you that context lets move on.
Face coverings in the time of Covid
Again let me state I can only give you my observations and experience from within the UK or specifically Scotland as that’s where I live. But you’ll be able to read the thread of this wherever you are.
Now the science behind face coverings is not cut and dried. For every testimonial you get from a someone working in healthcare saying they are a good idea for the general public, you get an opposing testimonial from another healthcare professional saying why they are not a good idea for the general public. Even the WHO have contradicted themselves with this one. Go see the footage for yourself regarding asymptomatic transmission in regards to data from Track and Trace systems – with it being , and I quote, “very rare”. They then went on to back track the next again day – but listen to it. It was not misunderstood or misrepresented.
As I’ve looked at it it’s very balanced – as in “proof” one way and then the other. And for the last month or so I have been saying people should decide for themselves what is best for THEM on a personal basis. If they make you feel safer, more secure and calmer to go out and about then by all means use them.
I understand and respect your decision based on your personal experience.
However that understanding and respect for peoples choices is not passed back. How do I know this? From the muttering, mumbling and dirty looks I have been given while physically distancing to get in to the supermarket while being unmasked. And it’s coming from a certain age demographic. Which in itself is interesting.
Again I understand your own personal reasons for your choices but I would be grateful for this to be spread a bit wider. To understand some people choose not to wear them due to THEIR view point and experiences. And to understand that some people CAN’T wear them. And are actually exempt.
Thats the kicker.
Lets drill this down a bit more shall we. Now this is UK specific only BUT I suggest you look at your own countries government guidance and read the small print. As much is guidance, not law.
Currently in Scotland it’s compulsory to wear them on public transport. And the guidance/reommendation is to wear them in confined areas such as shops from Monday 29th June. Now when I read the guidance notice on the official website I can see very clearly those who are exempt. But very few people go and read the FULL guidance.
If you are in England it’s central government – if Wales, N Ireland or Scotland as this is all health care which is devolved powers you have guidance direct from your devolved Parliament.
The guidance is slightly different – I had a bit of a heated discussion with someone about this at the beginning as they didn’t believe it was different guidance for each country. It is.
People don’t realise there are groups of people who are being advised not to wear face coverings. So please cease with the judgement and go look for yourselves.
I have had to purchase a lanyard that I can wear while out showing I’m exempt. And I shouldn’t have to do this. To be made to feel ostracised and singled out. Again those of you who can pick up on this energy know exactly where this last sat in history.
So into the energies we go
What I am seeing growing and playing out is the judgement of others without context.
Of assuming it’s one size fits all.
Regardless of what you think or believe this energy is very front and centre. To keep people fighting with each other to distract from everything else that’s happening. More and more people are feeding into this and it’s growing at an alarming rate.
I have looked down this timeline and trust me you REALLY don’t want it. Be careful what civil rights you are happy to hand over. Those shouting for it to be made mandatory everywhere you need to be careful. This is a twisted little energy and it’s gotten a foot hold.
Instead stop feeding it.
Do what feels right for you and realise virtue signalling “I”m showing I care for others by wearing this”, judgement “just wear it it’s simple” or the other side of the coin “you are all fear mongered sheep”, and everything else is not helping. It’s adding to this division and the chasm is getting wider.
Lets look to understand people have different perspective, experience and beliefs. And ALL are valid.
It’s time to stop silencing people – that’s censorship and another slippery slope.
I understand on an energetic level why my body rejected the face covering so violently. My energy work is to help people find their voice, to speak their truth and live their life as they choose. Being physically silenced or shut down goes against everything I do.
What can we do instead?
- Look at what we are sharing, projecting and living.
- Are you being authentic or are you pushing a current narrative?
- If looking to educate are you pushing one side or offering both so people can decide for themselves?
- Are you allowing your fears to run your life?
- Are you blinding sharing things without research
- Be willing to change your views based on information.
- Most importantly realising everyone is unique and no-one will have the exact same beliefs as you. So will not behave as you do, or as you wish them to.
This time is about pushing a lot of shadow to the surface. And this is part of it. An old energy trying it’s best to cling on and be taken forwards. Lets do what we can to remove this and say we will no longer fight one another. That is the most constructive thing we can do to dissolve out this highly divisive energy. Over face coverings of all things……
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